She gave him back all his kiss, but after a moment he felt her stiffening in his arms, and she put him aside and stood up.
``Ah, my poor Newland -- I suppose this had to be. But it doesn't in the least alter things,'' she said, looking down at him in her turn from the hearth.
``It alters the whole of life for me.''
``No, no -- it mustn't, it can't. You're engaged to May Welland; and I'm married.''
He stood up too, flushed and resolute. ``Nonsense! It's too late for that sort of thing. We've no right to lie to other people or to ourselves. We won't talk of your marriage; but do you see me marrying May after this?''
She stood silent, resting her thin elbows on the mantelpiece, her profile reflected in the glass behind her. One of the locks of her chignon had become loosened and hung on her neck; she looked haggard and almost old.
``I don't see you,'' she said at length, ``putting that question to May. Do you?''
He gave a reckless shrug. ``It's too late to do anything else.''
``You say that because it's the easiest thing to say at this moment -- not because it's true. In reality it's too late to do anything but what we'd both decided on.''
Monday, June 2, 2008
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Yes.''
``I had nothing to fear from that letter: absolutely nothing! All I feared was to bring notoriety, scandal, on the family -- on you and May.''
``Good God,'' he groaned again, bowing his face in his hands.
The silence that followed lay on them with the weight of things final and irrevocable. It seemed to Archer to be crushing him down like his own grave-stone; in all the wide future he saw nothing that would ever lift that load from his heart. He did not move from his place, or raise his head from his hands; his hidden eyeballs went on staring into utter darkness.
``At least I loved you -- '' he brought out.
On the other side of the hearth, from the sofa-corner where he supposed that she still crouched, he heard a
-169-faint stifled crying like a child's. He started up and came to her side.
``Ellen! What madness! Why are you crying? Nothing's done that can't be undone. I'm still free, and you're going to be.'' He had her in his arms, her face like a wet flower at his lips, and all their vain terrors shrivelling up like ghosts at sunrise. The one thing that astonished him now was that he should have stood for five minutes arguing with her across the width of the room, when just touching her made everything so simple.
``I had nothing to fear from that letter: absolutely nothing! All I feared was to bring notoriety, scandal, on the family -- on you and May.''
``Good God,'' he groaned again, bowing his face in his hands.
The silence that followed lay on them with the weight of things final and irrevocable. It seemed to Archer to be crushing him down like his own grave-stone; in all the wide future he saw nothing that would ever lift that load from his heart. He did not move from his place, or raise his head from his hands; his hidden eyeballs went on staring into utter darkness.
``At least I loved you -- '' he brought out.
On the other side of the hearth, from the sofa-corner where he supposed that she still crouched, he heard a
-169-faint stifled crying like a child's. He started up and came to her side.
``Ellen! What madness! Why are you crying? Nothing's done that can't be undone. I'm still free, and you're going to be.'' He had her in his arms, her face like a wet flower at his lips, and all their vain terrors shrivelling up like ghosts at sunrise. The one thing that astonished him now was that he should have stood for five minutes arguing with her across the width of the room, when just touching her made everything so simple.
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Archer reddened, and hurried on with a rush. ``We had a frank talk -- almost the first. She thinks my impatience a bad sign.''
``Merciful heavens -- a bad sign?''
``She thinks it means that I can't trust myself to go
-166-on caring for her. She thinks, in short, I want to marry her at once to get away from some one that I -- care for more.''
Madame Olenska examined this curiously. ``But if she thinks that -- why isn't she in a hurry too?''
``Because she's not like that: she's so much nobler. She insists all the more on the long engagement, to give me time -- ''
``Time to give her up for the other woman?''
``If I want to.''
Madame Olenska leaned toward the fire and gazed into it with fixed eyes. Down the quiet street Archer heard the approaching trot of her horses.
``That is noble,'' she said, with a slight break in her voice.
``Merciful heavens -- a bad sign?''
``She thinks it means that I can't trust myself to go
-166-on caring for her. She thinks, in short, I want to marry her at once to get away from some one that I -- care for more.''
Madame Olenska examined this curiously. ``But if she thinks that -- why isn't she in a hurry too?''
``Because she's not like that: she's so much nobler. She insists all the more on the long engagement, to give me time -- ''
``Time to give her up for the other woman?''
``If I want to.''
Madame Olenska leaned toward the fire and gazed into it with fixed eyes. Down the quiet street Archer heard the approaching trot of her horses.
``That is noble,'' she said, with a slight break in her voice.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
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"I wish I had our Dinah here, I know I do!" said Alice aloud, addressing nobody in particular. "She'd soon fetch it back!"
"And who is Dinah, if I might venture to ask the question?" said the Lory.
Alice replied eagerly, for she was always ready to talk about her pet: "Dinah's our cat. And she's such a capital one for catching mice, you can't think! And oh, I wish you could see her after the birds! Why, she'll eat a little bird as soon as look at it!"
This speech caused a remarkable sensation among the party. Some of the birds hurried off at once: one old Magpie began wrapping itself up very carefully, remarking, "I really must be getting home; the night-air doesn't suit my throat!" and a Canary called out in a trembling voice to its children, "Come away, my dears! It's high time you were all in bed!" On various pretexts they all moved off, and Alice was soon left alone.
"I wish I hadn't mentioned Dinah!" she said to herself in a melancholy tone. "Nobody seems to like her, down here, and I'm sure she's the best cat
"And who is Dinah, if I might venture to ask the question?" said the Lory.
Alice replied eagerly, for she was always ready to talk about her pet: "Dinah's our cat. And she's such a capital one for catching mice, you can't think! And oh, I wish you could see her after the birds! Why, she'll eat a little bird as soon as look at it!"
This speech caused a remarkable sensation among the party. Some of the birds hurried off at once: one old Magpie began wrapping itself up very carefully, remarking, "I really must be getting home; the night-air doesn't suit my throat!" and a Canary called out in a trembling voice to its children, "Come away, my dears! It's high time you were all in bed!" On various pretexts they all moved off, and Alice was soon left alone.
"I wish I hadn't mentioned Dinah!" she said to herself in a melancholy tone. "Nobody seems to like her, down here, and I'm sure she's the best cat
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This question the Dodo could not answer without a great deal of thought, and it sat for a long time with one finger pressed upon its forehead (the position in which you usually see Shakespeare, in the pictures of him), while the rest waited in silence. at last the Dodo said, "Everybody has won, and all must have prizes."
"But who is to give the prizes?" quite a chorus of voices asked.
"Why, she, of course," said the Dodo, pointing to Alice with one finger; and the whole party at once crowded round her, calling out in a confused way, "Prizes! Prizes!"
Alice had no idea what to do, and in despair she put her hand in her pocket, and pulled out a box of
-39-comfits (luckily the salt water had not got into it), and handed them round as prizes. There was exactly one a-piece all round.
"But who is to give the prizes?" quite a chorus of voices asked.
"Why, she, of course," said the Dodo, pointing to Alice with one finger; and the whole party at once crowded round her, calling out in a confused way, "Prizes! Prizes!"
Alice had no idea what to do, and in despair she put her hand in her pocket, and pulled out a box of
-39-comfits (luckily the salt water had not got into it), and handed them round as prizes. There was exactly one a-piece all round.
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THEY were indeed a queer-looking party that assembled on the bank -- the birds with draggled feathers, the animals with their fur clinging close to them, and all dripping wet, cross, and uncomfortable.
The first question of course was, how to get dry again: they had a consultation about this, and after a few minutes it seemed quite natural to Alice to find herself talking familiarly with them, as if she had known them all her life, she had quite a long argument with the Lory, who at last turned sulky, and would only say, "I am older than you, and must know better"; and this Alice would not allow without knowing how old it was, and, as the Lory positively refused to tell its age, there was no more to be said.
At last the Mouse, who seemed to be a person of authority among them, called out, "Sit down, all of you, and listen to me! I'll soon make you dry
The first question of course was, how to get dry again: they had a consultation about this, and after a few minutes it seemed quite natural to Alice to find herself talking familiarly with them, as if she had known them all her life, she had quite a long argument with the Lory, who at last turned sulky, and would only say, "I am older than you, and must know better"; and this Alice would not allow without knowing how old it was, and, as the Lory positively refused to tell its age, there was no more to be said.
At last the Mouse, who seemed to be a person of authority among them, called out, "Sit down, all of you, and listen to me! I'll soon make you dry
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Just then she heard something splashing about the pool a little way off, and she swam nearer to make out what it was: at first she thought it must be a walrus or hippopotamus, but then she remembered how small she was now, and she soon
-29-made out that it was only a mouse that had slipped in like herself.
"Would it be of any use, now," thought Alice, "to speak to this mouse? Everything is so out-of-the-way down here, that I should think very likely it can talk: at any rate, there's no harm in trying." So she began: "O Mouse, do you know the way out of this pool? I am very tired of swimming about here, O Mouse!" (Alice thought this must be the right way of speaking to a mouse: she had never done such a thing before, but she remembered having seen in her brother's Latin Grammar, "A mouse -- of a mouse -- to a mouse -- a mouse -- O
-29-made out that it was only a mouse that had slipped in like herself.
"Would it be of any use, now," thought Alice, "to speak to this mouse? Everything is so out-of-the-way down here, that I should think very likely it can talk: at any rate, there's no harm in trying." So she began: "O Mouse, do you know the way out of this pool? I am very tired of swimming about here, O Mouse!" (Alice thought this must be the right way of speaking to a mouse: she had never done such a thing before, but she remembered having seen in her brother's Latin Grammar, "A mouse -- of a mouse -- to a mouse -- a mouse -- O
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